(Source: exit-does--not-exist)
Alexander Rossi
You know I used to think that love existed. I used to think that it was something that I could grasp with my hands and kiss all night long. I thought it was something that I would be able to keep to myself. I found out that everything that I touch dies. That everything I get close to seems to leave me. Whether it be death or be because they love someone more than they love me. Does it break my heart every time someone does this to me? More than anything. Yet, I smile and act like nothing is wrong.
I go back to horrible habits that can kill me. I end up doing drugs for a long time. I become an alcoholic. They are my vices whenever things get too much for me and I just want to escape. I have spent several times on the ground nearly dying just because I don't want to face the world. I have tired to successfully kill myself on numerous occasions, but have not succeeded.
Tragedy is a part of my life, and I embrace it.
[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
No, I don’t want to fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart
No, I don’t want to fall in love
This world is only gonna break your heart.
(Source: someonesavedmylifethatnight)
Okay, update.
Since I won’t be getting on this account as much anymore, and I haven’t in the first place to begin with, you ALL can catch me on my newest one that I’ve been working on for a couple of days.
http://lostinblacksleep.tumblr.com/
He/She is a split personality person, with two different forms, and a bad case of jealousy. If you want to keep talking to me, which I highly doubt some people on here want to, you can catch me on there.
iceladydea replied to your post: ooc; okay.
((<3 I know that feeling. Feel better, and I hope that everything is all right. I actually have an idea I wanted to run by you when we’re both online. I love you hun. ))
ooc; You got me for like the next 8 minutes or so.
As for if anyone cares about my other characters.
Katrina ( Independent OC/Demon )
Riley ( Timelord Companion )
Logan Stark ( Marvel/Open OC )
Sif ( Marvel/Open )
ooc; okay.
I’m sorry with the attitude that I’ve been having tonight. My last couple days have been on and off because of the fact that the holidays are drawing close. My father has a drinking problem, and I’m scared out of my mind that he’s going to be fucked up come the 25th. It probably contributed to my strange mood on here tonight.
I’ve been just blah the entire time. I don’t like this mood.
Also, I really don’t know what to do with Alexander. Sometimes I get on here and I have 392043298430928432 ideas pop into my head and the next I don’t. Like tonight. I don’t know what I’m going to do with him. Deleting the character seems almost stupid since I’ve spent nearly over two years developing and continuously changing him. I don’t want to let him go.
I just want everyone on here that I hold dear to me that I apologize for my whining mood and I’ll be better come tomorrow.
Or in the next 3 to 4 hours I have of sleep. I love you all, okay? Just ignore the past OOC. I’ve been negative all week.
